Two and a Half Years On...

I think evidently my priorities have changed. I am no longer the kid who does nothing all day except indulging his interests in history and books, and far-fetched fantasies about being a mover and shaker in international politics and diplomacy.

I have more down-to-earth objectives and aims--to maintain my parents and to afford myself and my family a reasonable standard of living, which given the current environment of soaring CPI's is fast becoming an all-comsuming occupation.

Therefore I have to consider whether to continue my current pursuits in the past will yield significant returns, especially financially. And the answer, it seems from the past 1 year of pondering, to be a resounding "no".

And hence my priorities have changed some. To me, the most important thing right now is not whether a new piece of narrative about the past can be unearthed, but of what relevance and benefit it can bring to contemporary and subsequent generations, and ultimately, to me.

It has led me to realise a particular truth about school, work and life in general as well, assuming the mass majority of graduates like me seek the same object after graduation--a reasonable means of livelihood and financial independence. The truth is that, when we were in school, we indulged in subjects and disciplines, but after graduation we seek a livelihood and an income that can sustain and enrich ourselves. Now, if that is so, what are we doing by being an employee? Shouldn't we be doing something else?